Happy Birthday To Me!
I decided to made my index a blog because I want to rant about my life. Most of you really wants a personal touch on my slash blog because I categorized it as a personal blog but when I found my niche on doing make money online thing, you know what i mean right?, I seldom talked about myself and what I feel. So here, I made this to continue my purpose to be well again through expressing what I feel.
So last July 2007 I made a blog to help me with my sickness, it is called anxiety. Whenever my mind gets idle, so many what ifs are running around on my thoughts. Year 2005 was the worst year of my life because I had so many episodes of anxiety, actually that time it was from waking up until I fall asleep at night.
But me finding sleep is already a big struggle. I hyperventilate, I palpitate and cannot sleep while no one is awake. That struggle gave me only 3 to 4 hours a day of sleep. As soon as I found out that my palpitation is nothing physical but a psychological disability I stopped going to hospitals.
Because before whenever I experienced all the palpitation, hyperventilation and whatever I felt like life threatening you will always see me inside the ER of the nearest hospital around. I cannot go malling, yes I had agoraphobia. I cannot eat anything, because what triggers my anxiety was I choked New Years Eve then a “bawang” explode, that is why any solid food is a no-no specially pork and macaroni salad.
Whenever I am in the ER I spend a lot of money for ECG, check-ups and oxygen. I even had a moment when taking a bath is a fear for me. Thank God that after everything I went through He thought me how to not fear and now I believe I survived the chaos. Although I am still experiencing episodes of it but with the help of God I need not have to be worried.
Now I can do whatever I wanted to, go whenever wherever I like. Making all my dreams come true for His Glory. A verse is always in my mind whenever I felt fearful and it really helps me make it through.
The only thing left is I worry to much of what will happen but I know with God’s help I can surpass all the trials and travails life might give me because He wouldn’t give us a problem that we cannot bear.
No temptation has taken you but what is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but with the temptation also will make a way to escape, so that you may be able to bear it. 1Cor 10:13
I am moving on with my issues with my previous life without God. We are doing good now and with God’s will we will survive and like the story books would say, will live happy ever after.
Today marks my 28th year in this world and I thank God for giving me another year to serve Him. I know I have failed Him many times but I will try my best with the help of the Lord to be worthy of His mercy.
God, thank you for giving me strength, the ability to do the things for us to survive. Thank you for my family and thank you for everything that you have planned for me. Guide me on my worth and help me bear all my sickness and struggles. With you I know I am safe. AMEN.
The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. She never existed before. The woman existed, but the mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new. Welcome to my index page, my more personal page than my slash blog page, lol!
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May 8th, 2008 at 5:23 am
Happy happy birthday to you my dear Joyce. Another year over. Time to celebrate what’s past and look forward to another good one coming.
Bring out the wine:-)
Cheers!
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admin reply on May 8, 2008 10:45 am:
thanks for the greeting lotusflower
i can say i have move on and looking forward to a better future 
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May 8th, 2008 at 3:16 pm
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Habol ako sa bati.
That’s a really nice perspective to view any difficulty. God gives you challenges that He knows you can handle. Try not to think too much girl, helps keep away headaches and wrinkles. And when you do think, push the worries aside with some happy thoughts.
Hope you had a fabulous birthday!
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admin reply on May 9, 2008 1:10 am:
i am trying to do things w/o stress hehe and it really helps to give importance to little things, nakakasaya ng pakiramdam
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May 8th, 2008 at 7:59 pm
maligayang kaarawan!
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admin reply on May 9, 2008 1:10 am:
salamat sis
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May 8th, 2008 at 9:37 pm
happy birthday, JOAN! And happy mothers’ day! God is really faithful and that’s one thing I always keep in my mind - and one reason why we should not dwell on the past.
Blogging is really a therapy. Years 2006-07 were not really good for me, and I had series of anxiety and depression attacks. In numerous times, my faith was tested. Good thing, I discovered blog. It has become my vent. Since I was going through some rough times, I named mine beautifulandhappy - bcoz life is still beautiful despite all the odds, so we should always be happy!
Just keep the faith, you’re a strong person!
Everything shall pass! Again, happy birthday!
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admin reply on May 9, 2008 1:13 am:
talaga sis nagka-anxiety ka din? alam mo ang hirap ipaliwanag sa iba ang sakit na yan kasi iniisip ng iba diba pag nagpa-psychiatrist ka e baliw na that is one of my reason kung bkit hinayaan ko ung sakit na to mag heal mag isa pero mahirap talaga ung natatakot sa wala pero i am happy that i survived it all. ngayon inenjoy ko na ang buhay with the guidance of our Lord I know di ko na kailangan mag alala
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May 8th, 2008 at 9:38 pm
ei, sis, I almost forgot. I can’t find your entrecard.
And another ei, you’re one of the best bloggers I know!
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admin reply on May 9, 2008 1:15 am:
thanks
sis andon yun sa slash blog ko, di ko pa na-apply ito e bago pa kasi 
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May 10th, 2008 at 2:24 pm
belated happy birthday!
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admin reply on May 11, 2008 6:36 am:
thanks sis kengkay
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May 14th, 2008 at 3:36 am
joan, happy bday!! whats the difference ng joanjoyce.com sa joanjoyce.com/blog?
God bless po!
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admin reply on May 17, 2008 2:05 am:
the difference is i seldom post here lol pag may reklamo or natutunan lang sa buhay
thanks sa greetings glenn
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May 17th, 2008 at 10:44 pm
Happy birthday Joan!
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admin reply on May 18, 2008 1:25 am:
thank mam.. Welcome po s senti corner ko hehe
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May 31st, 2008 at 9:43 pm
i particularly love this quote. It just made me smile, i just had to comment
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admin reply on June 2, 2008 1:37 am:
yes it is very inspiring
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July 8th, 2008 at 3:50 pm
Hello1 though it is very late… Belated Natal day to you… Best wishes and more luck to come…
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admin reply on July 14, 2008 12:59 am:
thanks Juler
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August 11th, 2008 at 8:58 pm
i may be too late pero HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
dahil dyan may regalo akong tag message syo.. hehehe
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cheers!
annie
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admin reply on August 13, 2008 3:33 am:
thanks, ok na ba baby mo di na nagpupumilit lumabas agad? 3 more weeks ahhh t naiingit naman ako kasi boy
congrats 
gawin ko yan s Sunday..
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